Its only words, and words are all i have, to take your heart away.

Gna meet the babe soon!! Haven't prepare myself yet... Apparently he's gna be late and is irritating me. Grrrrr. But nvm. This means I'll have more time to prepare. Feeling oh-so lethargic.

JX sms-ed me this morning. Asked abt some stuff abt V day.... AND AFTER THAT YOU KNOW WHAT HE TOLD ME?!?!?!

"He's(JJ) gift is quite sweet wor. Must win him." - JX

WAAAAAAAAAAAA. He knows what JJ got for me!!! But he don't want to tell me. I'm so dead. I have no time to buy my CNY clothes... Let alone buying his V day gift =/   I'm so dead.

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Alright, very un-productive shopping tdy w babe. All because I'm so indecisive and I simply can't make up my mind on what kind of dress i shld wear. And I can't decide whether anot, i shld even wear dress on CNY 1st day. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Mood wasn't good. Babe thought I was angry w him. I was, at first. Because he didn't help me choose clothes!!!! >:(   But it's okay lah. Oh he bought himself a very very very nice pair of jeans frm Pull and Bear! He tried on so many jeans. Levi's and River Island. But Pull and Bear is so much nicer. He couldn't find his top tdy. Had dinner at Suntec's Fish&Co. Sat down at the bench near Fountain of Wealth till 8.30PM. I was so lazy to take a train back so we hailed a cab. Babe sent me home. How sweeeeeet! Gna miss him like mad 'cos we aren't mtg for at least 2 weeeeeeks! 'Cos of CNY and I've got work and he's going to have tests. We have no choice but to celebrate belated V day. But it's okayyyyy! This means I'll have more time to prepare his gift and first of all, think of what to get for him. Lol!! We took pictures! But it's in his phone. Really had fun tdy w JJ.

I am so glad I had kisses today.
All the times we fight feels like we're gambling our lives. I hope we never lose.
You're the one who stole my heart so innocently, but with care and grace and perfect love.
And the greatest thing about me, is your love.
Thank you so much for tdy. We'll meet agn in 2 weeks time.
In the mean while, I'll definitely miss you.

5th Feb 10 (Friday)

Worked. Did opening. Supposed to work till closing... But manager thought it'll be too tired for me and she let me off at 10PM ;)   However, still got my 3 hours break from 3PM-6PM. Ate my lunch and my dear boy came to look for me!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sooooooooooo happy*   Really really happy to see him. Though we only spent a short time of an hour+ tgt, I'm still so happy to see him.

"I can't believe I'm able to go down to meet you on a weekday! I'm so happy to see you"
-JJ

6th Feb 10 (today)

Woahhhhh today was pure shit. SOOOOOOOOOOOO many customers and we're alrd short of staff. Customers complained.... Scold me for no reason. Just because i walked pass their table, and that woman have to scold me. I didn't even serve them la please. How unreasonable. But whatever. Let my manager handle her. Worked till closing(11PM). Ah Loong(chef) waited for me and we took train back. He alighted at Bedok while i continued my journey all the way back!

Mtg babe tmr!!! ;)  Gonna get our new year clothing. He's gonna get his top and jeans. I'm gonner shop for dress. Bag too, if i can find nice ones. I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Babe's Vday's card is 50% ready and I'm very satisfied w my design!!! ;)  So proud of myself. Heheh.

Actually, for the past few weeks, I've been searching for my Vday's Gift frm Babe last year. I don't know where is it now. I don't know why it's gone. Sigh.... Searched high and low for it. Every lil corner of every drawer.... But i saw nth. I'm so disappointed in myself for misplacing it!!! This really tells me that I have to use Babe's gifts for me on an everyday basis in order not to lose it :'(     But nontheless, I'll still continue to find it. Not gonna give up 'cos it's just too precious!!

Opening tmr.... Till closing.... This means I'm working OT and this means more money!!! :)  3Hours worth of break tmr... Hope JJ will be able to come and look for me as he's going w his school to the Airshow! So envious of him... :)  Lets hope he can leave early and meet me during my break. If not we'll then meet on Sunday aft his tennis.

Yes i do.

Working is kinda my life now... So once i reach home after work, it's alrd late and there's no more energy and time to update this lil space. So since i'm off every Thurs, i shall stay up a lil later to update ;)

SImply love working there. Gna work whole day on CNY's eve! Double the pay :)  Don't mind skipping reunion dinner though! ALOT ALOT ALOT of customers called to reserve seats alrd. Wow... The reservation book is filled w words. Kinda busy tdy 'cos i was alone.... Serve customers, take oders, serve orders, clear tables, set tables, run to the cashier at the other side to settle bills, ALL BY MYSELF. Super tiring.

Wednesday is JJ's busiest and the most tiring day! PE + CCA + play bball after CCA. He totally zonked out at 11PM. Phone was quiet all the way back home. But i'm fine w it. Hope he'll be free on Sun!!!

I really can't.

Worked from 12NOON-3PM and 6PM-10PM. 3 hours worth of break. Waited for Joan's break at 4PM and we headed to Lerk Thai for our lunch!!!!! Awesome food. And 'cos we're considered airport staff, we have 20% discount and we only spent arnd $11!!!!! The food is good and it's worth the money, definitely. Stomach was bloated like %$#$%^&*!@#)&^%$# when we only had one bowl of noodles and a chicken. Wahhhhhhhhh, its been long since i ate till THISSSSS full. There wasn't many customers tdy...... But 95% of the customers who dined here, ordered Tiger Beer!!! It was really really really weird. Every other order that i took, they wanted Tiger Beer. Really odd.

Airshow starts tmr... From 2nd-7th Feb. Wanted to go but the ticket is $20!!! And it's like 15-20mins walk from airport. Oh and, most impt thing, SCREW THE ADULT FARE TOTALLY. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, trip from my house to J8, which is just 2stops away, cost freaking 69cents!!!!!!!!!!! *screams* And JJ still can mock me. He's still having the student fare and he's like laughing at me >:(   Wait till his student fare expires. Boo.

I love you soooooooooo much that you can't even imagine.

Haven't been updating this space for 2-3 days alrd! Pretty much very busy with my current life. Non-stop activities lined up for me. So much of things happened these few days too. Broke down yesterday. There is always a trigger factor somewhere that will blow things up. Realised how vulnerable i am. Realised how wilful i am. Realised all my mistakes that makes my r/s w JJ very very unstable. Didn't keep to my promises i made to him the other time when he got really upset w me. Had a really hard night yesterday.

But oh well, it was the 30th yesterday. Not a really good day... But, JJ still wrote me a letter. Its smth different cos it's not like mushy mushy stuff. It got me thinking how we're coping with the first month of 2010. And, it's only the 1st month. Many more months ahead is gonna be much worse. We both know that.

"Meeting less frequently doesn't mean I'm neglecting you or whatsoever......"
"No matter how often we meet, please remember that I'll still love you"

Somehow these 2 sentences from the letter comforted me, in my heart. Everything's back to its normal self already, everything's fine now, so is our r/s :)

No more quarrels. The usual 'us' is back ;)

POSTING RESULTS

Kind of the BIG-HOO-HAA for yesterday. Gosh, received like 10 over sms-es yesterday morning from lotsa ppl regarding the posting. Shocked when i saw my phone first thing in the morn. Got accepted by both JAE and JPSAE. Gotta reject one by March.... So there's still time to decide. But i'm definitely going to TP!!! And that's freakkkkkkkkkkking far T.T    L also got accepted by both JAE and JPSAE ;)  But i guess she's going to ECH... And i'm also most prob going to that course too. Now that we're in the same course, lets hope and pray we're going into the same class!!!!! *smiles*

Met Man @ interchange arnd 9.45AM and took bus to work. She came over to look for me during break. Popeyes for lunch :)  Talk about growing horizontally. 12NOON-4PM and 6PM-10PM. Finally a day off after 3 consecutive days at work. Gosh, really tiring. Okay, it's worse than just tiring. Working tmr.... Off on Sat, Malaysia on Sun. Kinda pissed w JJ because our plans were cocked up. Arghhhhh. Freaking pissed off but there's nth we can do abt it. And that sucks TOTALLY. But whatev. Hope after this weekend everything will go back to normal. It will!!!!!

'Cos baby, i don't know.

Missing-in-action for a day. Really tired. Never felt so tired before. 12PM-4PM and 6PM-10PM yesterday. Absolutely energy draining. Headed over to T1 to look for family as we're receiving a very distant distant relative frm China. Wow i didn't know that we actually have relatives in China. Reached home arnd 1AM. Mad tired. Slept straight away. Woke up really early tdy. 10AM-3PM and 6PM-10PM today. Lunch w Man during break. Full like retarded. Felt as if i had just eaten a whole cow. Despite feeling really really tired, i still enjoyed work as always :) 

Good managers + good colleagues + good chefs = wonderful!!!

JJ is being so lovely these days. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh. But he just needs to be a lil' more understanding :>

Family dinner this Sat. Really don't feel like going at all. First, it's the 30th. Secondly, someone is for sure going to bring someone along which i really dislike. Thirdly, i don't think JM's going. Really hate the feeling of being force especially when i've alrd made plans for myself on that day. But still, the mother never fail to threaten me. So? I'm gonna bring JJ along on Sat. End of story.

Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face,
but those that fall from the heart and cover the soul.
You'll never know, baby.

Met Jill & Loretta @ J8 arnd 1.30PM. Headed to KFC for lunch! Love KFC :)  Then to Bugis street as Jill wanted to her earrings. As usual, laughed alot. Totally love the company :)  Left arnd 4.30PM for work. Worked from 6PM-10.30PM. Dead tired. But ahhh, had fun working as usual. Fell down in the kitchen! 2 bruises in total. Chefs kept mocking me all the way. How mean right!!!! And, cut myself while opening the drinks. Awwwww, it was quite a deep cut. But i guess it's okay. All's well. Headed to T2 to look for Man as she finishes @ 11PM. Took 53 back and waited for Pa @ J8. Fetched Man home and reached home arnd 12.30AM.

When I miss you, I don't have to go far ... I just have to look inside my heart because that's where I'll find you.
I'm following mine.

Tdy is a good day :)  Met JJ @ DG Stn arnd 3.30PM. And when i saw him, i was like OMG WHY U BECOME SO BLACK!!!!! He played tennis in th morn and did alot of outdoor activities in sch too. Woah, it's like SUPER BLACK.... Okay moving on.... Took 16 to Leisure Park Kallang. Initial plan was to ice-skate!!! But to my utter horror, the ring was FULL OF PEOPLE. Ahhhhh, what a disappointment. Stoned for abt 1/2 hour and decided to bowl. 3 rounds of bowling. Ended arnd 6+PM. Dined @ Pastamania. Famished ttm. Didn't eat anyth for the entire day. Dinner was my only meal. Finished our dinner arnd 7+PM and headed out to somewhere near Kallang River and sat down. Cool night. Nobody was there too! It was quite dark and quiet. Were in our own world. 2 person world, if u translate that in chinese literally. Haha! Sat till abt 9.45PM!!! Then we were too lazy to go back to DG and take train home. So we just hail a cab. Reached home arnd 10.30PM and JJ continued his journey back home in the same taxi. Time really( x100000000000000000000) pass very fast when i'm w him!!! >:(    But ahhh, can't spend as much time as compared to the holidays already!!! It's okayyyyyyy, I'm contented ;)

No photos taken tdy :(

Love you babe ♥